huwow.... it has been a long time since i last laid eyes on this page... date of last entry is september of 2006... CLEARLY i can say that a lot has happened... let's see....

work...

around that time i was still working out of tower 1 as a borrowed employee to help start our account there at the enterprise... then i went back to alabang... then was offered to work out of tower 1 permanently.. and i've been here for 9 months now...

family...

mom is okay... she got a new ride... brother 1 okay... he has a new gf and is planning to get married soon... brother 2 okay... working for pque med which is like a couple of steps away from their house....

social life...

still zero... but i don't mind anyway so there...

love life...

HUGE CHANGE!!!! around this time last year i got in a new relationship...and you guys are probably thinking WHAT!! AGAIN!! WHATEVER!! well hear me out first darnit! anyway! got engaged, lived in together and 6 months ago GOT MARRIED!!!  he is so the best thing that ever happened to me...

so this is my update... i'll try to post more now that i know my password.... hehehehe

i've gone through so much rain, flood, hurricane and all that in the last several years... i'm glad that i'm FINALLY beginning to see the rainbow...

Iskwelang kwela ‘to dito’y enjoyable
konting aral lang konting bulakbol
dito nang lahat, madaldal at bulol
dito na nga, Iskul Bukol

[chorus]
Ah hah hah, ah hoo yahh
iskul Bukol
ah hah hah, ah hoo yeah
iskul Bukol

Hanggang sa umuwi mula pa sa roll call
lahat ay magulo, but okey lang, it’s cool
dito ay terrible, dito’y buhol-buhol
ito na nga, Iskul Bukol

[chorus]
Ah hah hah, ah hoo yahh
iskul Bukol
ah hah hah, ah hoo yeah
iskul Bukol

[coda]
Iskul, Iskul, Iskul Bukol (6x)
sa iskul naming ay sigurado ka
sa happening at sa katatawa
siguradong ang mga pabongga
ang di lang sure… ang papasa

[chorus]
Ah hah hah, ah hoo yahh
iskul Bukol
ah hah hah, ah hoo yeah
iskul Bukol

[coda]
Iskul, Iskul, Iskul Bukol (6x)
sa iskul naming ay sigurado ka
sa happening at sa katatawa
siguradong ang mga pabongga
ang di lang sure… ang papasa

Ito’y sayaw sa ating bayan
humahanga ang sandaigdigan
na sa galaw ng ‘yong mga kamay

At sa imbay ng mga baywang
anong ganda ay anong inam
kapag ito ay mamasdan
anong ganda at anong inam

...so you'll never know
>if i'm fertile or not... it's funny 'cause (well not really funny) now i
>have
>to choose... or my lola is making me choose... "why risk your health over
>wanting to have a baby... get your ovaries taken out and be over with it"
>easy for her to say because 1. she doesnt really like kids that much and 2.
>she has 6 kids (for the sake of procreating... not by choice or so i
>heard) 18 grandchildren and 5 great grandchildren to bother her.... i was
>actually thinking about this last night when i was sulking (i miss my old
>beanbag because they're very good when it comes to sulking... instead i
>collapsed on my bed and stared up at my princess curtain hanging over my
>bed)... you know about life and my future and what to do about it...
>regrets
>and achievements... goals... my accomplishments so far... and i was pretty
>disappointed... (ergo i started crying again)... at my age i should be
>set... my own house... a car... savings... instead i'm living with my mom
>and using the family car... how nice... and to top it all off my boss is
>threatening to take my job away from me although he'll have to go through
>hell to do that.... but all this kinda went away when i saw my friend
>(after
>3 years)... he's married... just got married actually... renting a place...
>making ends meet... one kid... sole earner still living a single life
>(gimmick-wise).... so really i actually kind of have it made...was able to
>talk to *toot* as well (i usually go to him when it comes to things like
>this
>because his status makes me feel better... i know that it's sad but it
>helps
>when you know that someone has a shittier life than you) and we compared
>our
>lives... breadwinner... supporting (semi) two brothers in college...
>helping
>mom go through remission (cancer)... dad is considered a liability (its a
>sad term i told him because its his responsibility as a child to take care
>of the dad)... has a gf who keeps him on check 24/7... (my name on his
>phone
>book is "RICK" the girl has major insecurity issues when it comes to me
>ONLY
>because according to *toot* we were together for 6 years) ... so i started
>feeling a little better after that conversation... he said that i'm doing
>better than 90% of the population (although i very much doubt that... he
>had
>a very lousy sampling probably) 10% of the population probably consists of
>the OLD RICH (including my dads family but i refuse to use that to my
>advantage) who has nothing better to do with money so they up and leave
>anytime they want to do the dumbest thing like watch a pacquiao game...
>another 10% consists of the noveau rich... another 10% consists of upper
>middle class married with children and has enough for certain luxuries and
>what not... another 10% probably consists of married with children just
>making ends meet... so i told *toot* that i'm doing better compared to 50%
>of
>the population not counting those desperate and lonely and hopeless ladies
>who married for the sake of comfort (of course he made a face... and said
>that he created a sarcastic cynical monster bitch... {sarcasm i got from
>*toot*} and i violently disagreed! i am not cynical!!!) we came up with
>goals
>actually....
>
>
>1. secure job by being chummies with new boss (which i refuse to do... the
>most is to be on speaking terms with him again in a professional manner if
>the need arises like if my old boss is not around)
>
>2. continue saving...
>
>3. achieve self-actualization (this has been my goal for about 10,000 years
>[thats an exag because i'm only 26 and i doubt i can set the same goal back
>when i was 14!] according to *toot*)
>
>4. and this is *toot* speaking not his words but to sum up what he said be
>indomitable since i'm a big pushover and can be conquered easily or
>manipulated easily...(when i said no he reminded me of the time he informed
>me that theres a new breed of species that generated from cross breeding
>chickens and cow and i believed him... told him that that doesn't count
>because i researched on that and told him it was not true so that was being
>indomitable since i researched on it)
>
>5. get a life... according to him allergies can be heightened by being
>socially isolated... (which i found out was true) told him he was full of
>BS
>because i have a social life with not just people from pinas but from all
>over US (he said me talking to clients doesn't count)
>
>6.  well we never got to six because he got irritated with my being
>sarcastic... told him that i wasnt being sarcastic just being INDOMITABLE.
>HAH!!!!
>and then we started talking about dating and all that... (we usually do)
>told him that life sucks on that department... wish i could go back to the
>days when love letters and sappy things were still in fashion... and he
>accussed me of reading to many books about kiddy romances (which is true)
>so we dropped that subject and parted ways....

 

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Trainer Certification WITH!!! Derrick Shannen... Here we are STILL part of one team at Italianni's Greenbelt 2. From left to right we have Manix, Jojo, Rica and Sash. I would freaking give anything for this bloody team. Gotta love 'em.

i am expected to do well

i am expected not to fuck up AT ALL

i am expected to meet the demands of the department

i am expected to be okay with everything

 

who set these expectations?

 

my boss?

 

 

no....

 

 

my coworkers?

 

 

 

no....

 

 

 

FUCK!!!

 

 

PRESSURE!!!!!

 

 

i set the expectations....

I've been told that you should always say the words "I love you" to people you care about every chance you get. I've been told that you should mean it when you say it. I've been told that you should learn how to love and never regret anything. You want to know what I think? I think everything I've been ever told is coddswallop. I've had the opportunity to be totally humiliated every time I said those three fucking words.

 

This is from someone's blog. Good point actually. If I weren't in such a perfect relationship I'd think that those words were bull as well... Actually here's what I thought if it before....

 

Love is an idea which people are trying to sell other people... It's like a piece of chocolate... It tastes good... who cares if it's bad for your health....like mink coat... it feels good... who gives a rat ass if you can't wear it here... if you're pretty convincing when you're trying to sell it hell anyone will buy it....

My mom used to tell me that before you can get married you must be in love.... so that you'll be happy forever.... sounds kinda familiar... "you wanna look cool? buy a louis!!" same concept.... if there's love there's marriage then kids then a perfect life and future... if i weren't in such a perfect relationship i'd say THAT'S BULLSHIT because there may be LOVE but THERE'S NO BLOODY MONEY TO FEED THE KIDS AND NO MONEY TO BUY ME COOL GADGETS HENCE NO PERFECT LIFE!!!! this is what i used to think (i am so rambling!) now i think it's great... AHAHAHAHA!!!

for a long time mother ian has been waiting for an APdate.... for those of you who have been an avid reader of my blog ya'll know that i rarely put anything here unless i have major eeeeshoes... (hi bush!)...  which i don't think will happen anytime soon since my life is basically perfect as of the moment... even family crap is okay.... we even went out of town last sun to celebrate my lola's birthday....

 

a good friend of mine left us this morning... he died after a horrid accident... made me think how short life is... at that very moment when i was thinking of all the things i'd miss if ever the same happened  to me my precious texted.... "i love you baby... take care on your way to work okay... please magingat po... seryoso ako..." when he went in my office earlier he just gave me a hug.... he was quiet until i said something...

Rica: thank you baby...

Aaron: huh? for what?

Rica: for being part of my life...

Aaron: thank you as well

Rica: for what?

Aaron: for giving me life...

events such as deaths make you appreciate the simplest things in life that are priceless... aaron and i are lucky... we get to say these things to each other EVERYDAY... we let each other know how much we love one another EVERYDAY... please do the same... you may not be able to do so tomorrow....

BryanBoy inspired Ian and me to take pictures of our bags and its contents.... Here's mine...

 

 

My XOXO bag from New Jersey, smokes, two ATM cards, 2 pens, a compact, lipstick, my Palm, my wireless keyboard for my palm, my n-gage and my ipod shuffle... oh and can't do without lotion in my bag...